Highs and Lows

Hi guys.  Sorry that I haven't been able to post in a while, I haven't been in the best mindset to post anything. These last few days have been extremely hard for me. I have been in Washington, DC from Sunday to Tuesday. After terrible news that a friend of mine was killed, I was a total mess. My mom was heading off to DC for her work, and decided that since I am not actually going to school right now, I needed to get away from what was happening and take a mini vacation. 

Let me tell you, that was one of the best things I have done in a long time for myself. While my mom was at meetings, my aunt and I explored DC…and got lost a few times. We went to the American History Museum, visited Georgetown to get cupcakes from Georgetown Cupcakes. Looking back to March, I would not have touched a cupcake, because I labeled it as “bad”. But I will always remember something that my dietician told me: No food is bad, all food is good but in moderation. Anyways, all in all, it was much needed, and I had a good time. On one of our many walks through DC, I was trying to think of what I wanted to write about. Looking down, I saw the bracelets that were around my wrist. They are called Lokai Bracelets, which have elements that are from the highest and lowest points of the earth. The bracelets are supposed to represent the highest and lowest points in life. I believe that I have had a lot of high and low points in my life, and I wanted to write about them in my blog.

I have experienced three major deaths in my life, which have definitely been my lowest points. Also getting diagnosed with Anorexia, being told by doctors that my body was on its way to shutting down, severe depression, and having had more than one suicide attempt, I’d say that I have had my fair share of hard days. But-that does not mean that I haven’t had high points in life. Kicking anorexia’s butt, speaking at the Eating Disorders program, being accepted into my dream school, High Point University, going to DC, and getting to help other people going through the same things that I have, have all been major highs. I have thought about the meaning of my life, after the most recent death of my friend, and even though right now I don’t want to live in a world that can be so difficult, I want to live for my dad and friends, since they no longer can. My goal in life is to help and inspire other people, and I know that’s what they would want for me also. 

I want to end this post with a saying that a friend of mine sent to me the other day: “difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations”. I hope this is true, because I think everyone deserves to reach a beautiful destination. Until then, I am going to keep moving forward no matter what life throws at me. Hopefully I will be posting again on Sunday, have a great week!
Stay Strong